Happy times doesnt last long

Exhausted. Despair. Can someone tell me why there's always a selfish thought in some that thrills them. Weekend ended with unspeakable despair. i just realised certain things don't really matter anymore, at least in someone's perspective. and it's getting harder and harder to grasp the meaning of it. to define it the way i thought the rest of the world thinks it should be. It proved me wrong. the trust and the faith is slowly fading, because things just get harder and harder, to be understanding and to be patient. and importantly, to not question. life gets better when you know someone in love with the same thing as you do. or even things, that gets even more exciting. and then, it turns sour, when you felt it starts to get a little interfering. then you feel disturbed and you felt where is your unique vibe. and you asked yourself, where is the fucking vibe of mine. It;s all About "diversify"- one powerful word i learnt throughout my course. Life is all about risk. i guess in this, is all about the friction and tension. some kinda risk? be everything. be ugly and pretty. be mean and nice. be understanding and demanding. be a sucker and lover. be a best friend and back stabber. be single and attached. starting to sound wrong. but so many, i've known, is doing so. is that their way to diversify? i thought, my freedom was my kingdom. now its acting like a dungeon. the after-effect im referring to. then again, you thought you're in control of everything but friction was piling up at the same time. where did all this rubbish come from. happy things don't last long? to fake it, replicate the "oh-so-good" times? what shit is all these about? !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

Happy times doesnt last long