Rainbow after the rain

I'm mentally exhausted and I'm mentally stress.

With the responsibilities and workload I have.

Will be anti-social awhile.

I really hope the saying of,

Rainbow after a cloudy day applies.

Because I want my rainbow asap.

What doesn't kills you will always make you stronger.

That I believe applies if you never give up and keep trying to search for the opportunities around you.

:)

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Rainbow after the rain

Wisdom

Difficult people are very important, - they teach us tolerance and acceptance.

If all was going your way all the time, you would become a spoiled child, wouldn't everyone?

 Difficult people are just one of the ways that teaches us to expand beyond our egos and accept other perspectives on life.

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Wisdom

you know it..

"Out of sight. Out of mind" Someone tells me that and elaborate the meaning of this quote. It's when you don't think, it'll be out of your mind. As long as you are somewhere far away, you will be alright.

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you know it..

Pick yourself up because no one will

A good morning wake up advice. *Click* When I fall, I know I can pick myself up :) If you do not believe in yourself, who can? :) !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

Pick yourself up because no one will

death ....

Death. What can you say about death? Everyone will have to leave us one day. It's just a life cycle. It's not something that come unexpectedly. The day we know the meaning of death, we should expect it that one day it will be us or people we love will leave. When the person leave one day, cry because the person is in a better place. Dont cry because the person left. I believe that one day all of us will learn to accept death. Sad, tormenting, impacting but it has to happen. That's part of life. Learn to let go because when you learn to let go, a part of you will feel more relieved. Thats what I feel. Tears of course there will be tears. But how long can you cry? 5 years? 10 years? Cry for a day and let go. Sad for a day and let go. But after that day, tell yourself, You will be better !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

death ....

Things you don't learn in school

Somethings in life you can't just learn in school.

Disappointment after disappointment. I never know that disappointment could be this hard and these helpless.

Why doesnt any school taught us that?

Or is it they think it's something not important to learn?

Well, pardon me then.

I think it is what every child should learn because every steps they take in their life, they face so much disappointment that at times they might be helpless.

I know I am.

Heading to somewhere for a cooling down period as Yun & Yin suggested.

A random picture that my darlings sent to me last time.

Love is not just about the love between a guy and a girl.
It's about family and friendship as well.
And someone told me this,
"Why bother to love when you can't even love yourself first?"
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Things you don't learn in school

expectations..

The higher your expectations the higher your disappointments. And it's good that next time to have lower expectations because humans are only human. They made mistakes and mistakes are painful to endure. With such, expectations made are no longer satisfied . Why do sometimes human made high expectations and in the end all you will feel is disappointment? Humans are dumb, thats why! !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

expectations..

Ignorance is blissful

I typed out a long post about everything. Mind you, its not an emo post. It's just a post regarding everything.. But i decided to draft it so that my blog authors can read it.. Ignorance is bliss ...... Because there are some people that are wtf. Because sometimes all you can do is ignore.. Because in a relationship, sometimes you tend to take more than give more.. Because sometimes some friends are just piece of shit; useless and disappointing. Because friends come and go, true friends stay behind.. Because its so disappointing to just be fake.. But sometimes everyone has a mask... Which one is the right one? My girls back home and my girls around the world, hang in there okay! :) you know i love you girls so much and you girls are my pillar of strengths :) !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

Ignorance is blissful

What's your story?

Everyone has their side of story, What's yours ?
Read this *click* Some of it might represent how you feel and some might represent how you think someone might feel. And i think it is important for everyone to let it out once awile :) Dont let anyone facade fools you into believing anything .. :) !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

What's your story?

Catch up

So, yesterday night was pretty emotional and challenging and nerve wrecking and energy draining for me. Started off with a call lead to texting lead to calling lead to texting lead to call lead to msn. Yeah, you get the drift. But everything ends well i hope. Im so freaking confused right now. My girls, please buzz me when you guys are online :)
Anne, thank you for talking to me :) and yea, freaking concentrate yea? :) cant wait for our honeymoon love! :)
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Catch up

You know when you want something, you try your very BEST to forget ABOUT it or just plain ignore it. But what happens when you are unsure of it, you are unsure that you want it badly or you just want it for the sake of wanting it. What happens when you thought that you got everything under control but then you just lost it. I don't cry that easily for you. I don't show people how I feel that easily. After all this while, I wouldnt know that you are telling the truth or are just plain lying. I guess I shouldnt even think about all this but I want to win. I dont know how should I start and how should i end. Im not making sense here. Why should I ? I dont always make sense. Whatever. Yang scolded me for being this way. His message made me tear like mad. Yinz gave me the 'look' because i think this way. I miss youuuu and Rica. I don't know whether 'this' is consider precious to me or just something. But I know losing it impacted me lately. This impact is so strong that I dont know whether I should cry or laugh. Joanne once told me that a person that drank a lot of alcohol, in other words, drunk, would behave opposite from their usual self. If you are always happy, always cheerful in person but once you are drunk, you will cry like mad. If you are emotional, and don't keep everything to yourself, once in awhile letting yourself go, but when you are drunk, you will just keep quiet or laugh like mad. Life is profound and unpredictable right? So why cant I stop the tears that keep coming down from my face. !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

"Certainly there are alot of things in life that money wont buy, but it's very funny-have you ever tried to buy them without money?" - Ogden Nash !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

I woke up with swollen eyes. Something trigger me last night The tears that i been holding all this while flows down :( :( Holding on to my tears seems like the easiest thing to do. Rica, i need to talk to you :( the stuff i told you about? I cant take it anymore. Had a long conversation with my other girl. Thank you for everything :) :) Your words of encouragement and advice means alot to me. He gave me a call last night at the right timing. Eventhough you irritate the shit out of me with your words but i appreciate it :) Thanx for being a great friend and helping me since the day i met you. Please stop tempting me :P I cried non-stop while i was talking to mummy and daddy. Daddy said, " girl, go buy something or go shop for something that you like so you can feel better. But dont buy so expensive stuff k" *typical daddy* Mummy, "don't eat so much junk food. Later you cant fit into your jeans. Dont complain that you put on weight if u keep eating nonsesne.Im not gona sponsor you to buy new clothes" *typical mummy* But i still love them la... <3 Few more months to go only right? Im strong enough to go through it :) And i got September break to look forward.. Bunkin in Rica's place. Rica, thanx for listening to me. :) :) :) I cant wait to meet up with my sweetie :) *you* s a u c e y p i: holding well there? s a u c e y p i: you have to okay! s a u c e y p i: its de best time to train up yourself **~l-BaBy KâThRÿ: sighs. **~l-BaBy KâThRÿ: i dunno **~l-BaBy KâThRÿ: i really wana transfer back **~l-BaBy KâThRÿ: =/ s a u c e y p i: you have de opportunity to go over there then you should stay s a u c e y p i: who's life got no obstacles wan you tell me? s a u c e y p i: kat, you have yet to see the BIG obstacles yet le s a u c e y p i: not to say you're alone there s a u c e y p i: i know you miss your family, but its about time for you to toughen s a u c e y p i: big girl ady I lup Jason la.. He's beeng giving me endless advice :) Thanx for everything :) !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

Even though its just plain simple words but you made me smile Your take care with a wink and a talk to you soon mades my day :) !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

"In life, you will obtain the best thing after a few falls. How many falls, you asked? No one knows. Only HE knows. It couls be 5 times or it could be more than that." " But I dont want to fall a few times. Falling one time is bad enough. And now we had to fall few times in order to get the next best thing? What kind of arrangement is that!" " Life is about learning after you fell. I learnt that in life, you will never be given second chance" Why do we have to fall few times? I know it's pretty selfish of me to say this but... I DONT WANT TO FALL FEW TIMES! If falling few times causes so much pain and tears, I rather not fall. Dammit... You know the saying, its all about balance.. It's all about equity.. Ya right... Whoever said this, go screw yourself okay. Untill today, I never know that not knowing how to play the right card can be harmful. So now I know. I didnt play my cards right. The next time I will play and deal my cards correctly *ya right* !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

"The quotations when engraved upon the memory give you good thought... Would you erase me?" !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->

Sometimes what you expected and want it to be is not the same as what's in reality.It's true.I learn about this long time but it seems that i keep making the same mistake over and over again.Looks can be so fcuking deceiving, which tells us not to judge a person by its looks. But my heart tells me otherwise, making me feel so fcuking naive at tines. Gosh! i do hate myself for it! Isnt communication is the key to everything? but i really don't know how or what to say. I never meant it to be this way. But im frigging tired to actually think about all this. Mixed feelings exist: anger, hurt, sad, disappointment... but all this are ignore because i believe the best in you.. but maybe that's not the best solution.. you whisper sweet stuff to me... to me, sweet words are just words.. nice to hear but it does not has any effects on anything.. As they said, "actions speak louder than words" the sweet stuff are just words.. WORDS that anyone can express it.. My fren told me once, "it's not hard to say the three letter words. The hardest part is when whether you actually meant it or dont. That's the hardest part." and you know what? i finally realized the truth in her sentence! gosh... i never knew it will be so hard to be in a relationship.......... I'm dont even bother to try anything anymore... seriously.... I'm not gona be like last time where i spend days crying over ... matters.... Now, im just gona be like try my best to patch everything up but if cant, then im just gona ignore it.serious... its hard to keep everything to myself when i dont know what are you thinking anymore. I really hope that you reassure my fears. I dont want my fears to happen... i need to know whether im on the right path... gosh.. If it's so hard, i would rather let go than continue suffering. Its hard to let go but you just got to let go when it's time.Letting go is never easy.Maybe miracle can helps this work out.gosh. i wouldnt knw. How do you know when's the time to let go? How do you make this pass without the mix feelings? How do you know when to say goodbye? !-- AddToAny Share/Save BEGIN -->